Full disclosure, you should pause for ummm like 9 minutes because after I wrote that first line I seriously zoned out and stared at the wall for a while...holy hangover Batman.
Twenty eleven kind of really sucked for me, for a multitude of reasons but after having lunch with my good friend and her fiance I walked home and thought WOW things are actually looking pretty good to me, seeing happy people and having a super sunny day can do that to you. Something about starting the year over to me is like I've said before, a clean slate, which is why I seriously love celebrating it in a big way. However good or bad the previous year was I always want to ring in the new year in a big, loud, sparkly way. It's nice to think that you can start over an this year just has to be better than the last and I'm going to be glass half fulling it up all over town.
I mean I have a trip to Spain booked with my fabulous, fun friends. Most of my friends are happy and married or happy and single. There are dogs all over this city who am likely to befriend. I am lucky to have my health, a new sister-in-law, to have a job in the recession and Jelly finally got her claws capped (a wonderful new year present). I'm going to move home with mama for a bit but hopefully that will be good for both of us and then I will be on to a new adventure.
So there are a lot of great things in my life and I'm lucky for them all. I mean, Im still clumsy, I can't ski, I don't eat white foods (although I had my first raw oyster last night...I won't be revisiting that) I have terrible decision making when it comes to men and I've gained what I like to call an unpleasant amount of stress related binge weight haha, but that's ok. I think with age you start to be a little bit more secure in yourself. I'll work on the weight thing and I'm always working on the clumsy, but you know I am a being in evolution right? So I'll try to better myself but I'm also going to give myself a fucking break..something I am terrible at. Not allowing myself to ruminate on all the stupid things I think, say, or do and instead take some of my own advice and tell myself a few positive things once in a while is a good plan and I suggest you all do the same.
That's just what I've been thinking, but then again I'm like 65% champagne at this point soooo. And honestly I kind of like the weird situations I get myself in and "The Eve Before the Eve" did just happen recently so there is a story accompanying that en route as well.
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